I had always been strong and I was not used to showing my feelings or being able to cry. : Chelsea striker Diego Costa scraps with Swansea to rescue a point in 2-2 drawThe Sun. Action Images5Claus Lundekvam celebrates after scoring against Wolves in 2004X007005Arsenal’s . This season is the last at the club if my contract ends. News Group Newspapers Ltd6Wright in training with David Seaman and WengerNews Group Newspapers Ltd6T. I grew up very quickly because of the difficulties and responsibilities that I have always had. It was a very, very hard thing to accept especially when your judgement is clouded by alcohol and drugs. achinesRelated StoriesAina on alertWho is Ola Aina All you need to know about the Chelsea defender named on the bench in EFL CupFab DealSevilla line up move for Chelsea playmaker Cesc Fabregas as he struggles to impress Antonio ConteKali Blue itChelsea target Kalidou Koulibaly ends transfer speculation by signing new deal with Italian club NapoliOSCAR WINNERFour years after his stunning debut goal against Juventus Oscar continues to frustrate Blues faithfulCourting AtletiChelsea goalkeeper Thibaut Courtois reveals his desire to return to Spain with Atletico Madrid Reuters5The former Atletico Madrid man admits he wants to return to Spain one dayGetty Images5Courtois' current deal deal expires in 2018Dont they know this is the age of the smart phone A fax sounds terribly old-fashioned — maybe the Madrid carrier pigeon is injured. History notes that I scored two goals in a 2-0 win. He said: ?I feel a bit tired, I didnt play a proper game for a long time, so a bit tired but happy.